I Used to Think I Just Needed to Be More Disciplined. Here’s What I Know Now.
For years, I thought discipline was the missing piece.
If I could just get up earlier
Stick to the plan
Follow the routine
Be more focused
Try harder
Then maybe I’d finally feel like I had it together.
But you know… I never did.
Not consistently. Not sustainably. And not without burning myself out in the process.
I wasn’t lazy. I was unsupported.
I didn’t need more grit or grind.
I needed systems that made sense for how I operate—on good days and hard ones.
I needed room for my energy, my brain, my cycle, my actual life.
But when you’re smart and capable and people rely on you, it’s easy to confuse self-punishment with self-discipline. Especially when the outside world rewards your overfunctioning.
I got really good at performing stability, even when I felt anything but stable.
What changed?
I stopped trying to be a better machine.
And I started learning how to be a better caretaker for myself.
I stopped seeing my inconsistency as a character flaw
And started seeing it as information.
A signal.
A chance to pay attention.
I realized:
I’m not a robot. I’m a human with seasons and needs.
I don’t need rigid routines. I need flexible, responsive rhythms.
I don’t need to be pushed harder. I need to be supported better.
I don’t need to “earn” rest or structure or clarity. I just need to build it—with intention, not shame.
I needed to prepare, and set myself up for success.
Real talk: discipline didn’t save me. Systems did.
But not the “woke up at 5am, crushed 10 goals before breakfast” kind.
I mean the calm, quiet systems that hold me even when I’m tired.
The ones that make life feel lighter, not more intense.
The kind that flex with me instead of break me.
A Notion dashboard that holds my thoughts so I don’t have to
A planning process that works even when I don’t feel like doing anything
A time audit that shows me where my energy is going
Boundaries that aren’t flashy, but deeply protective
If you’ve been telling yourself “I just need to be more disciplined…”
I want to offer a different narrative.
Maybe you don’t need to push yourself harder.
Maybe you need support that fits you better.
Maybe the goal isn’t perfect consistency, but gentle continuity.
Maybe you're not bad at discipline—maybe you’re just done abandoning yourself in the name of it.
And maybe, instead of asking “How do I force myself to show up?”
You get to start asking:
“What would make it feel safe and doable to show up as I am?”
That shift changed everything for me.
If this resonates…
My tools were built with this exact shift in mind.
They’re not about hustle or pressure.
They’re about clarity, relief, and systems that actually support your life.
Time Audit Challenge → to help you understand where your time is going
Clarity to Completion → to help you finish what matters without forcing yourself
My Notion Systems & Planners → to help you stay organized without getting overwhelmed
Because discipline is not the goal.
Self-trust is.
